13 September 2013

Full Circle

I've been thinking lots recently about coming full circle, and how people wiser than me (like my mum and grandma) always told me that would happen. How when I was a child, all I ever wanted to do was draw (even if it was mostly ladies in patterned outfits or girls living in submarines and space houses). How I went to design school at too young an age really, because that's what everyone seemed to think I should be doing and I had no idea what else I wanted to do.

I thought I might like to illustrate children's books, but in the end went to London and worked in animation studios for long hours sitting very still and having to be very neat and tidy. This ended up driving me mad, and I ran away to what I thought would be a glamorous life training as a dancer, which I did (it wasn't so glamorous but it was definitely exciting, and frequently, painful).

I came back to the idea of drawing again about five years ago. Having a child changed my ideas about 'career' and whatever that meant. Dance or theatre projects can be exhausting. They're all-consuming and exhilarating and sometimes few and far between. They last for six or seven weeks, and then they're over. I wanted something that I could do at unusual hours, in peace and quiet. Basically, I just wanted to sit still again.

This thing has developed slowly. It's a DIY course in re-discovering what I once knew, plus a whole lot of new stuff. I often question what I'm doing, my own ability and whether I'll ever earn any money from doing it. I still work on theatre projects, because they're fun, and still important. But now it's time to think about where to go next, and how to get there. Anyone got a map?


roberto said...

Hi, Carla, a map?
I think the map is called, "Let life flow, but let her see you, to take you with her"
This means: if you like to draw, draw,
but you do what you can to be sure that these drawings are seen by someone,
if you like dancing, dance, but you do what you can for someone sees you dance
if you like to be an actor, act, but you do what you can for someone sees you acting...
...and so, life goes on, with your wonderful son learning that his mother is free.
have a nice weekend, Carla! :))))

Carla said...

Hello Roberto! Everything you say is true. And when I look back at all the things I've done, I see that everything was on my list of things I wanted to do - with some unexpected surprises thrown in. Now the list is being rewritten again, which is exciting. Thank you for continuing to visit me here and for your wise words. I hope you're having a nice weekend too!

jennifer said...

You've done so much! Just keep going... Draw all the time and you keep on growing and learning. I like your post.

Carla said...

Thank you Jennifer... it's consistency that's the key, I know... and so easy to get distracted!

jennifer said...

I forgot to say in my last comment that I adore these drawings!

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